"Ashes Left Behind" information

-from album "Re / Served"
-release date: 2017/03/01
-get it on Amazon, Apple (iTunes) or Spotify

-lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I'm running in circles
I'm tired as hell
No one beside me
Don't know where I am
I'm all alone
No one knows, no one cares
Why does it fell I can't live without scare

[Chorus]
Ashes left behind from my inside
But I won't let go all I've been through
I can't move on
Can't see the dawn
Scars reminding me what I used to be

[Verse 2]
I'm hiding in silence
It feels like in hell
Forgotten life
No one knows who I am
Running away 'cause I know no one cares
Why does it fell I can't live without scare

[Chorus]
Ashes left behind from my inside
But I won't let go all I've been through
I can't move on
Can't see the dawn
Scars reminding me what I used to be

[Bridge]
Can't realize what I've become
But I know my pain will stay
But I'll be gone

[Chorus]
Ashes left behind from my inside
But I won't let go all I've been through
I can't move on
Can't see the dawn
Scars reminding me what I used to be
What I used to be

"Fade Away" information

This song's working names were "Demo 19" and "Fading Away". The lyrics were almost completely rewritten during its production.
-from album "Re / Served"
-release date: 2017/03/01
-get it on Amazon, Apple (iTunes) or Spotify

-lyrics:

[Verse 1]
I can't forget
Won't let it go
In front of my eyes
My shadow grows

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried it all
But I still fall

[Chorus]
I
I fade and fall
And lost it all
You saved my broken soul
I fade away
I lost control
You saved my broken soul

[Verse 2]
It's way to dark to see the truth
sometimes I don't know what to do

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried it all
But I still fall

[Chorus]
I
I fade and fall
And lost it all
You saved my broken soul
I fade away
I lost control
You saved my broken soul

[Bridge]
Fading away
Broken trust
Falling apart
Turning into dust
But I don't regret the things I've said
And I won't break cause I know that

[Chorus]
I
I fade and fall
And lost it all
You saved my broken soul
I fade away
I lost control
You saved my broken soul
It's way to dark to see the truth
You saved my broken soul
Sometimes I don't know what to do
 --------------------------------------------------

-demo #1: "Demo 19 [Piano Version]"
-release date: 2018/08/02












-lyrics: no lyrics (instrumental song)

"Again" information

-from album "Re / Served"
-release date: 2017/03/01
-get it on Amazon, Apple (iTunes) or Spotify

-lyrics:

[Verse 1]
Again and again I try to breathe again
With chains around my chest
Again and again I try to live again
I want to leave the past

[Pre-Chorus]
One step back
Down on the floor
Get back up and go
You know

[Chorus]
I can't resist to be another one
This lie can not be undone

[Verse 2]
Like suffocation my whole life condemned
The beginning of the end
I try to focus but I just spin around while everything goes down

[Pre-Chorus]
One step back
Down on the floor
Get back up and go
You know

[Chorus]
I can't resist to be another one
This lie can not be...
I'll change the past
I'm waiting all alone and searching for the right or wrong

[Bridge]
It really doesn't matter what you think or what you do
Because
It won't delete the fucking hell that I've been trough
I saw a lot of bad things
Couldn't even dream of it
Get off of my head
You talked enough shit
Your wasted your time
I am still the same
You wanna play some shit?
Okay, I'll play your game
So please, listen when I'm letting you know
I'll just look in my mind for a rhyme to let go

[Chorus]
I can't resist to be another one
This lie can not be...
I'll change the past
I'm waiting all alone and searching for the right or wrong
Searching for the right or wrong
Searching for the right or wrong
--------------------------------------------------

-demo #1: "Prove Your Pride"
-release date: never released

-lyrics: no lyrics (instrumental song)

"Echoes" information

-from album "Re / Served"
-release date: 2017/03/01
-get it on Amazon, Apple (iTunes) or Spotify

-lyrics:

[Verse 1]
Black dust around
Hard to breath
There's no way out
I can't leave
I'm locked inside but still I try to find a place for me
Black covered clouds
Lost my sight
Still hear the soun of your lies
The echoes of the broken trust remain and never leave

[Chorus]
I have lost my masquerade
Let me go before it's too late
All the scars inside of me
I still hope one day I'll get distance from my bad memories

[Verse 2]
I fear the doubt
Can't let go
Can't live without my shadow
The pain inside my chest is my own insecurity

[Chorus]
I have lost my masquerade
Let me go before it's too late
All the scars inside of me
I still hope one day I'll get distance from my bad memories

[Bridge]
All of my wounds won't heal
As long as you are with me
Suffocate
I can't breath
Lost in between

[Breakdown]
Black covered clouds
Lost my sight
Still hear the sound of your lies
The echoes of the broken trust remain and never leave

[Chorus]
I have lost my masquerade
Let me go before it's too late
All the scars inside of me
I still hope one day I'll get distance from my bad memories

[Outro]
I fear the doubt
Can't let go
Can't live without my shadow
The pain inside my chest is my own insecurity

"On the Edge" information

-from album "Re / Served"
-release date: 2017/03/01
-get it on Amazon, Apple (iTunes) or Spotify

-lyrics:

[Verse 1]
Yeah, this is where it began
The memories inside my head remain
All the voices
They make me insane
I try to get them out
So I can hear again
But they won't stop talkin' to me
Is this the way it's gonna be
My head won't work normally
It seems they gonna proclaim a democracy
But they will speak now
And I will hear
I understand them crystal clear
Explaining me they won't disappear
Three hundred and sixty-five days a year
But they are wrong
So I deny
Every single word is a lie
Forget about the times I tried
'Cause every word opened my eyes

[Chorus]
I wanna go ahead
I wanna let all the memories somewhere else, instead
No matter what I said
So many things unsaid
I'm on the edge with you

[Verse 2]
All these mistakes that I can't repair
I tried so hard and now I don't care
It doesn't matter what I compare
It's all the same
I got nowhere
Expect a rose on my shoulder blade
Or a barcode tag on the back of my neck
I don't know what to expect
Going away before I can't turn my back
There's nothing more that can be done
Can't realize what I've become
And I don't know where these thoughts are from
Looking back to see how far I've come
Looking back on it and let it go
Every thought is like a fading glow
Try to fix
I wouldn't say so
It stays locked up like my shadow

[Chorus]
I wanna go ahead
I wanna let all the memories somewhere else, instead
No matter what I said
So many things unsaid
I'm on the edge with you

[Chorus]
I wanna go ahead
I wanna let all the memories somewhere else, instead
No matter what I said
So many things unsaid
I'm on the edge with you

[Verse 3]
Going on
Nothing to say
Nothing to loose
I found my way
Never wanted to go down this way
Waiting until these mistakes are fading away
But somehow my wounds turn into scars
And I don't know how I got this far
Never forget
Remember who you are
I won’t lose 'cause I tried so hard
This is what I used to be
Every scar became a memory
I will be who I want to be
I will end up where I meant to be
No one knows what I had to do
All these lies but I know the truth
No one knows what I've been through
'Cause in the end I'm standing next to you

[Chorus]
I wanna go ahead
I wanna let all the memories somewhere else, instead
No matter what I said
So many things unsaid
I'm on the edge with you

[Chorus]
I wanna go ahead
I wanna let all the memories somewhere else, instead
No matter what I said
So many things unsaid
I'm on the edge with you
 --------------------------------------------------

-single version

The Verse 2 of the this version of the song is a cover from the Verse 2 of "Swimming Pools (Drank)" by Kendrick Lamar. Steven says he likes this version more than the original.

-release date: 2017/03/01

-lyrics:

[Verse 1]
This is where it began
The memories inside my head remain
All the voices
They make me insane
I try to get them out
So I can hear again
But they won't stop talkin' to me
Is this the way it's gonna be
My head won't work normally
It seems they gonna proclaim a democracy
But they will speak now
And I will hear
I understand them crystal clear
Explaining me they won't disappear
Three hundred and sixty-five days a year
But they are wrong
So I deny
Every single word is a lie
Forget about the times I tried
'Cause every word opened my eyes

[Chorus]
I wanna go ahead
I wanna let all the memories somewhere else, instead
No matter what I said
So many things unsaid
I'm on the edge with you

[Verse 2]
(Okay, now open your mind up and listen me, Kendrick)
(I am your conscience, if you do not hear me)
(Then you will be history, Kendrick)
(I know that you're nauseous right now)
(And I'm hopin' to lead you to victory, Kendrick)
If I take another one down
I'mma drown in some poison abusin' my limit
I think that I'm feelin' the vibe
I see the love in her eyes, I see the feelin'
The freedom is granted as soon as the damage of vodka arrived
This how you capitalize
This is parental advice
Then apparently, I'm over-influenced by what you are doin'
I thought I was doin' the most 'til someone said to me
Yeah

[Chorus]
I wanna go ahead
I wanna let all the memories somewhere else, instead
No matter what I said
So many things unsaid
I'm on the edge with you

[Chorus]
I wanna go ahead
I wanna let all the memories somewhere else, instead
No matter what I said
So many things unsaid
I'm on the edge with you
You
You

"Somewhere Else" information

This song is a rework of "Somewhere Else" (made when they were called Reserved).
According to Steven, this song is dedicated to a friend of his who suicided by jumping in front of a train.
-from album "Re / Served"
-release date: 2017/03/01
-get it on Amazon, Apple (iTunes) or Spotify

-lyrics:

[Verse 1]
If you feel your own enemy in your head
And your body says: "I'm so scared"
Is it the right decision even if it makes you sad
You're afraid 'cause the future doesn't feel like the past

[Pre-Chorus]
If I could change my past and make the wrongs in rights
I would throw it all away and make the days in nights
And if you're all alone and you don't have choice
Just believe in the truth in your voice
Be your only help
If I could change my past and make the wrongs in rights
I would throw it all away and make the days in nights
And if you're all alone and you don't have choice
Just believe in the truth in your voice

[Chorus]
My will is gone and fades away
I should have known
I can’t stay
Essentially I always wanted to be somewhere else
Somewhere else

[Verse 2]
And it starts with a broken dream
Sometimes memories aren't as clear as they seem
So what you think what was absolutely your choice
Was just implanted in your head by your enemies' voice

[Pre-Chorus]
If I could change my past and make the wrongs in rights
I would throw it all away and make the days in nights
And if you're all alone and you don't have choice
Just believe in the truth in your voice
Be your only help
If I could change my past and make the wrongs in rights
I would throw it all away and make the days in nights
And if you're all alone and you don't have choice
Just believe in the truth in your voice

[Chorus]
My will is gone and fades away
I should have known
I can’t stay
Essentially I always wanted to be somewhere else
Somewhere else

[Bridge]
This here came from my deepest insides
I've begged, I've bleeded for my dreams in my life

[Chorus]
My will is gone and fades away
I should have known
I can’t stay
Essentially I always wanted to be somewhere else
Somewhere else

[Outro]
Somewhere else
Somewhere else
--------------------------------------------------

-acoustic
-release date: 2018/02/18

-lyrics:

[Verse 1]
If you feel your own enemy in your head
And your body says: "I'm so scared"
Is it the right decision even if it makes you sad
You're afraid 'cause the future doesn't feel like the past

[Pre-Chorus]
If I could change my past and make the wrongs in rights
I would throw it all away and make the days in nights
And if you're all alone and you don't have choice
Just believe in the truth in your voice
Be your only help
If I could change my past and make the wrongs in rights
I would throw it all away and make the days in nights
And if you're all alone and you don't have choice
Just believe in the truth in your voice

[Chorus]
My will is gone and fades away
I should have known
I can’t stay
Essentially I always wanted to be somewhere else
Somewhere else

[Verse 2]
And it starts with a broken dream
Sometimes memories aren't as clear as they seem
So what you think what was absolutely your choice
Was just implanted in your head by your enemies' voice

[Pre-Chorus]
If I could change my past and make the wrongs in rights
I would throw it all away and make the days in nights
And if you're all alone and you don't have choice
Just believe in the truth in your voice
Be your only help
If I could change my past and make the wrongs in rights
I would throw it all away and make the days in nights
And if you're all alone and you don't have choice
Just believe in the truth in your voice

[Chorus]
My will is gone and fades away
I should have known
I can’t stay
Essentially I always wanted to be somewhere else
Somewhere else

[Bridge]
This here came from my deepest insides
I've begged, I've bleeded for my dreams in my life

[Chorus]
My will is gone and fades away
I should have known
I can’t stay
Essentially I always wanted to be somewhere else
Somewhere else

[Outro]
Somewhere else
Somewhere else

"Lost Myself" information

-from album "Re / Served"
-release date: 2017/03/01

-get it on Amazon, Apple (iTunes) or Spotify

-lyrics:

[Verse 1]
You're fading away
Somewhere in my memories
You turned into something that you said you would never be
The distance between here and there
Is the only thing that I can see
The past is so close
That it's even hard for me to breath
Can't separate what's wrong or right
Can't separate the truth and lies
Changed into
Something new
Different look in your eyes
Remembering all the things that you wanted to forget
There are so many choices that you tried not to regret

[Pre-Chorus]
Choices I made
Cannot erase
Feeling how the rain is falling down my face
Wrong time and wrong place
Decisions you made
Cannot escape
Feeling all the pain running through my veins
It will never be the same

[Chorus]
Broken trust can't be repaired
Acting like you don't care
I lost myself somewhere
Memories that I regret
That I cannot forget

[Verse 2]
I'm just thinking while I'm breathing
Wondering what's this feeling that I'm feeling
Sometimes I been having trouble sleeping
That's because I am searching for some reasons
And I don't want to separate the truth and lies
So afraid
Don’t know why
People change
Memories don't
Different look in my eyes
Remembering all the things that I wanted to forget
There are so many choices that I tried not to regret

[Pre-Chorus]
Choices I made
Cannot erase
Feeling how the rain is falling down my face
Wrong time and wrong place
Decisions you made
Cannot escape
Feeling all the pain running through my veins
It will never be the same

[Chorus]
Broken trust can't be repaired
Acting like you don't care
I lost myself somewhere
Memories that I regret
That I cannot forget

[Bridge]
I'm lost somewhere
Mentally I'm far away
But somehow I know
That I will find my way

[Chorus]
Broken trust can't be repaired
Acting like you don't care
I lost myself somewhere
Memories that I regret
That I cannot forget
--------------------------------------------------

-instrumental
-release date: 2018/06/22












-lyrics: no lyrics (instrumental song)

"Blind" information

This song is a rework of the song "Blind" made when they were Reserved.
-from album "Re / Served"
-release date: 2017/03/01
-get it on Amazon, Apple (iTunes) or Spotify
 
-lyrics:

[Verse 1]
The words you told me made my blind
I feel so helpless 'cause you're in my mind
You don't want to get hurt, so you don't want to stay
You looked to the ground and just walked away

[Pre-Chorus]
Trying to hold but I'm trying not to break
So I'm fighting for a new chance with every step I take
Just

[Chorus]
Let me go out of this hole you made
But you won't, 'cause you are so afraid
I'll look straight and never turn around
I'll stay strong
You'll never see me on the ground

[Verse 2]
Do you really think you can hide like that
I know you're here, I can feel you in my head
I won't feel so bad
So sick and mad
And you just try to live
Try to fake and forget

[Pre-Chorus]
Trying to hold but I'm trying not to break
So I'm fighting for a new chance with every step I take
Just

[Chorus]
Let me go out of this hole you made
But you won't 'cause you are so afraid
I'll look straight and never turn around
I'll stay strong
You'll never see me on the ground

[Bridge]
I'm trying to forget but it's in my mind
Looking for the right path I know I won't find
I want to let go
My fucked up past
But it stays looked up here, inside my chest
I'm sick with these games
I don't want to play
I know I've done some wrong
I'm gonna pay
And I'm tired of being the one who's always ashamed
So this time you'll be the one who's blamed

[Chorus]
Let me go out of this hole you made
But you won't 'cause you are so afraid
I'll look straight and never turn around
I'll stay strong
You'll never see me on the ground

"Re / Served" is on the run!

"Re / Served" cover

A late update (since the album's been out since 2017/03/01), but after 4 to 5 years of waiting (and of the guy's hard work) the album finally came out! "Re / Served" is available on Amazon, Google Play, iTunes and Spotify and consists of 12 tracks, including "Escape" and "Trust". More info on the "Albums" section of the blog.